When Lauren became sick I wanted to know why. Why would someone young & fit succumb to flu, when usually it would be fought off with a...

The way humans evolve is really quite extraordinary, not just physically but emotionally. As our lifes become more complicated so do our...

My first ever open water swim is in July so I've been swimming twice a week since the beginning of Feb, only at the local pool, I'm not...

We began the funeral planning and I was keen to have it before Christmas. It felt heavy, like something hanging over us, so I wanted to...

The worst thing about grief is that it is ever present, lurking in the background of every thought and action. It is there forever. I...

I met with a reporter from Lancashire Post this week to discuss the fundraising we were doing for Alderhey Children's Hospital. I...

It's coming to the end of half term, and as all parents can attest to, it's been a wet one. I had planned on filling the week with long...

After the fingerpainting, and the fingerprints, after the singing, after we said our final goodbyes, after we turned Lauren's machines...

I cried in the shower this morning and I realised that I hadn't done that for a while. Don't get me wrong, I've cried every day since...

Sometimes the hardest part of this journey is that it is not mine alone. I don't have ownership of all the pain and heartache, I have to...

I've not posted for a few days as I've been trying to write about Lauren's last 24 hours. But I've realised I don't want to do that....

I am aware that when I started this blog I had vague altruistic intent, not just to vent my emotions to anyone who would listen. I also...

Well we made it through the weekend, with the help of pizza & wine from friends. We also received the NODA certificate from Lauren's...

This weekend would have been a hectic one, it's Lauren's dance show time. I wish all the best for all the dancers from her LCAD family...

The day Lauren went onto ECMO is abit of a blur. I know I messaged the Husband to tell him she had got worse in the night. Phone calls...

A couple of days ago I was collecting my son, or "The Boy" as Lauren always called him, from Chorley after a cinema trip with friends. ...

So I've mentioned that we want to carry on fundraising for Alderhey Hospital in Lauren's name. I can announce that the first event has...

Before Lauren got sick I'd booked a table at a local restaurant for me and The Husband. The booking was for last night. When i got the...

And the gifts keep coming 💙 My friends are truly amazing. I guess I already knew that they were fantastic, but it takes a tragedy to...

When I walked into Lauren's room on Tuesday 10th December 2019 everything changed. It was clear that Lauren had deteriorated in the night....