So it was Lauren's birthday on Sunday, and, in the morning, I could feel the burden of it. The week had been difficult, for one reason...

Today marks the 7 month anniversary of Lauren's death, 7 months of this alternative reality. Tomorrow is Lauren's birthday, her...

The week leading up to Lauren's birthday is hard enough without being thrown another curve-ball. Yesterday I had to take my son to A&E,...

This Sunday it will be Lauren's 14th Birthday so I am a ball of nervous, emotional energy. I'm attempting to keep busy but my attention...

On the days when I go into the office I usually get up early so I can take the not so little puppy out for her morning walk. I like to...

So it's looking like we will see the sunny shores of Spain this summer. The summer holiday has been off, then on, then probably off,...

Grief is a strange thing, always changing & shifting slightly, too slippery to ever get a proper hold of. I have a few days of feeling...

When Lauren died I explained to her siblings that she would always be a part of our family, that we would always talk about her. I told...

One of the things I wanted to do after Lauren's death was create an area where we could always remember her. It seems a strange thing to...

This week I went back to work. The second time this year I've headed back after an extended absence. The first time was after Lauren's...

This past month has been too hard. It may be due in some part to the weeks of lockdown. But I also think it is linked to the birthdays...

So the lockdown continues, or at least it does for most of us. One day blends with the next. I miss my family and friends. Zoom...

This is one of the grief cliches I can actually get on board with. Just to be clear I don't mean "You should count your Blessings young...

Losing a child is the worst grief you will feel. I'm told this often, and I want to ask, how do you know? I don't mean this in a...

There are times when grief rears up and butts you in the head, often unexpectedly. Tomorrow is my son's 12th birthday. Last year, for...

I got a message this week that reminded me why I started writing this blog. It wasn't just as a vent for my emotions, but with the hope...

Today marks five months since Lauren died. Five months today we were driving back from Alderhey in stunned silence, almost fleeing the...

I don't think the true destruction of our mental health will be laid bare until the lockdown eases. Like many people I am furloughed. I...

One of the unexpected consequences to Lauren's death, is my inability to listen to any music without my heart breaking. Music has always...