Remembrance Day. There are mornings where Lauren is no longer the first thing I think of when I wake up, when her smile does not float...

Last night I discovered something that I probably should have probably been aware of some months ago. I realised that I was assigning...

We are all so caught up in our own self importance as human beings, in our rush to prove ourselves in some arbitrary manner, that we...

Speaking to other bereaved parents reminds me, yet again, how appallingly bad we are at dealing with grief, both the bereaved and their...

Yesterday completed the 100th day of my 365 day challenge to travel 5k a day to Alderley, over 700km travelled. It isn't always easy to...

The meeting at the hospital to review Lauren's treatment was, unsurprisingly, pretty awful. I didn't really expect anything else. ...

The date always hits me like a sledgehammer. I know it's coming, but then in the morning I forget for a few blissful minutes. 10 months...

Well that's my birthday been and gone and it's hard to think of a worse one. The problem with "special" days is that it's automatic to...

The past month has been really hard. I've been back to bursting into tears whilst walking the dog, or driving home on the M6, or...

This week I've been tackling my backlog of emails. Over 2000 in my Gmail account. All the lists I've subscribed to with the promise of...

Little Luna is 10 months old today. What an absolute joy she is. Friends of ours recommended a puppy, or at least told us how much it...

I've not been well. It's just a cold. Although I'm not sure any illness is "just" anything these days. I felt like a pariah for simply...

How can 9 months have past, it seems both an eternal amount of tine and no time at all. With schools starting back and people getting...

Sometimes there is a desire in me to fill with self pity and decree "It's not fair." At times like this I try and remind myself that...

It has been a busy few days, school, work, kids activities, wine. My head has been swirly with it all. I've wanted to write but somehow...

Yesterday the local high school went back, yes in August! So my son started year 8, Lauren would have been year 10, but obviously she's...

We've just returned from our third break away during the school holidays. There was definitely a determination on our part to get away...

Two weeks of isolation came to an end & we headed to the lakes. It's hard to describe how amazing it felt to be in the great outdoors...

Can't believe we've got here, 8 months since she died, how is that real. I wonder if I'll always count the months or whether, like with...

Lauren's death has forced me to live in the present. Remembering the past, the happy,contented previous me is painful. Thinking of a...