I am Lauren's mum.  My daughter died suddenly and unexpectedly.  I am doing everything possible to survive this.

As a family we are raising money in Lauren's name for Alderhey Children's Hospital.  Visit her Justgiving page here


Surviving Lauren Menzies - My tale of life, love & loss



Little Luna is 10 months old today. What an absolute joy she is. Friends of ours recommended a puppy, or at least told us how much it...

Sickness & Health

I've not been well. It's just a cold. Although I'm not sure any illness is "just" anything these days. I felt like a pariah for simply...

9 Months

How can 9 months have past, it seems both an eternal amount of tine and no time at all. With schools starting back and people getting...

"It's not fair!"

Sometimes there is a desire in me to fill with self pity and decree "It's not fair." At times like this I try and remind myself that...


It has been a busy few days, school, work, kids activities, wine. My head has been swirly with it all. I've wanted to write but somehow...

Back to School

Yesterday the local high school went back, yes in August! So my son started year 8, Lauren would have been year 10, but obviously she's...

The Learning Curve

We've just returned from our third break away during the school holidays. There was definitely a determination on our part to get away...

The Great Outdoors

Two weeks of isolation came to an end & we headed to the lakes. It's hard to describe how amazing it felt to be in the great outdoors...

8 months

Can't believe we've got here, 8 months since she died, how is that real. I wonder if I'll always count the months or whether, like with...

I Wish

Lauren's death has forced me to live in the present. Remembering the past, the happy,contented previous me is painful. Thinking of a...

Science of the Damned

As most of you know I'm currently in self isolation with the family. It's giving me lots of time for thinking, so I'm trying to keep it...

Self Isolation

Day 1 of self isolation. I think it's going to be more difficult than I imagined. I'm tired. I drank too much wine last night to combat...

Nominate a mate

So when one of my friends suggested I have the option to "nominate a mate" for my 5k a day to Alderley I hoped I'd never need it. To...

Holiday Time

We are just getting ready to return from our first holiday, the first one as a family since Lauren died. I'm not counting the airbnb we...

Order and Chaos

I'm reading the best book at the moment, not necessarily my favourite book ever, but definitely the best book for me at the moment. It...

Empathy by Numbers

Well that's the first week of walking completed. Over 70km covered already. It is a constant action that I am aware of as soon as I...

Birthdays and Solace in the Divine.

So it was Lauren's birthday on Sunday, and, in the morning, I could feel the burden of it. The week had been difficult, for one reason...

7 months

Today marks the 7 month anniversary of Lauren's death, 7 months of this alternative reality. Tomorrow is Lauren's birthday, her...

Trials and Tribulations

The week leading up to Lauren's birthday is hard enough without being thrown another curve-ball. Yesterday I had to take my son to A&E,...

5k a day for Alderhey

This Sunday it will be Lauren's 14th Birthday so I am a ball of nervous, emotional energy. I'm attempting to keep busy but my attention...



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Upcoming Events

  • 5k a day for Alderhey
    Sat, 10 Jul
    United Kingdom
    10 Jul, 19:00
    United Kingdom, United Kingdom
    From 11 July 2020 until 10th July 2021 Sarah will be walking/cycling 5k every day to raise money for Alderhey Childrens Hospital
  •  Wooler Trail Marathon   ***Postponed***
    Sat, 14 Nov
    Northumberland National Park
    14 Nov 2020, 08:00
    Northumberland National Park, 7 South Park, Hexham NE46 1BT, UK
    Wooler Trail Marathon is set in the heart of Northumberland National Park. This is a challenging Trail Marathon with just over 6000 feet of ascent,
  • Scarfell Pike Marathon
    Sun, 16 Aug
    Scafell Pike
    16 Aug 2020, 08:00
    Scafell Pike, Scafell Pike, Seascale CA19 1TH, UK
    A trail marathon incorporating England's highest peak. Based from Keswick the route follows beautiful lakeshore trails, wooded valleys to spectacular high mountain trails, incorporating some of the most dramatic rock scenery in the Lake District.
  • Epic Lakes Swim Derwent Water 5th July
    05 Jul 2020, 12:00 – 14:00
    Crow Park, Keswick CA12 5DJ, UK
    The Derwent Epic Lakes Swim is event 2 of the Epic Lakes Open Water Swim Series. It takes place from Crow Park, in Keswick and forms part of the National Trust Regatta Weekend.